Friday, September 30, 2005

Are your eyes tired?

You need to click on them to actually get the ful effect. Enjoy... Don't stare too long or you'll get dizzy like I did. :D

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

I don't get it.

Here I am trying to live my life as peacefully as possible and then people want to be my hero and save me. Uhmmm. Who ever mentioned that I needed help to begin with?? I'm going through changes in my life and I'd love to just adjust to it instead of people trying to create something that doesn't even exist so I'll be comfortable. I can handle myself but for some reason some people don't believe that. They think I'm this poor little girl who always needs to run to somebody for help because I can't handle anything. I don't why people can't see that I'm strong enough. They lie to me, they keep things from me, they treat me like I'm a victim. I'm not needy... If I've ever gave the impression that I am, I guess it's all a misunderstanding of some things I'm trying to deal with on my own. If that makes any sense.

I'm not the average girl, I've dealt with a lot in my life. Yeah I'm 27 but I've experienced more than most Arab girls. I still get treated like I'm a baby. No offense to guys who have the need to be heros but, don't treat me like some poor little girl because that's one thing I'm not.

I just find it pretty interesting that other girls don't do this to me. They are just normal and don't have to prove anything to me but on the other hands, I have no idea why most guys treat me like this. Yes, I know I'm an open book but that's because I'm open, direct and I've got nothing to hide. I guess, they see this as a weakness. I feel it's great because people will truly see who am I if they actually stop searching for the meaning behind what they see. I am what you see.

I know it's a guy thing to want to be hero in general and I totally respect that but when it comes to them laying to me, keeping some truth from me and treating me like a baby, that I don't not accept what so ever. Just give it to me as it is.

My final word, ok some of the guys who might read thing might think I'm referring to them. I'm not to referring to anybody specific. I'm talking in general and that's because I've been dealing with his issue for a while now and just today, somebody from my past decided to drop me a line to be my hero again and he triggered some seriously annoying issues.

I don't mean to offend anybody and if anybody did, I'm sorry. I'm just being my honest and direct me. I'm just expressing my true self.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

My Blog....The results are in.

Now that I got the results in, I removed the poll.

Results: 47% (9 people) of people voted that this blog is user friendly
53% (10 people) of people voted that this blog isn't friendly.

Since the majority doesn't think that this blog is user friendly, I'm going to change the format to something easier. I'll now have everything all clearly put in one page. So give me sometime to get the new design in and actually put it up. I wanted my blog to be more active, especially my chatbox that the majority is neglecting. :(

Thanks to all those who voted and special thanks to those who actually gave me feedback...

Give me some energy, baby!!!

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Raise Your Energy Level
Adapted from Creative Visualization, by Ronald Shone (Inner Traditions, 1998).

Simple Solution
If you need more energy, or you are mildly depressed, this creative visualization will help: the author says he has found it to be most effective.

Work during the day can certainly deplete our energy. Some days seem more draining than others, and some begin with a low stock of energy because of a poor night’s sleep. One reason that we rest and sleep is so that we can restore the body’s energy. This visualization will also achieve a natural raising of your body’s energy level. Find out how:

While in a relaxed state, you imagine yourself lying on a bed with your eyes closed. A beam of sunlight comes down from the sun and envelops your whole body. You then rise up and pass along the beam of sunlight into the heart of the sun. (At this stage, imagine yourself naked.) When you reach the heart of the sun, you open up your arms and legs to make an X shape; this includes opening up your hands and fingers. You then simply imagine that you are absorbing into your body health-giving energy. Really feel the energy going into your body. (Your body may very well tingle during this creative visualization.) If you like, you can at this point add a series of suggestions. They can go something like this:

I can feel the energy from the sun passing into my body. Yes, my body is drawing energy from the sun--energy that my body needs, energy that will revitalize all my body, energy that will pass into every cell and every organ of my body. (Keep this up until you feel that your body has sufficient energy--a feeling that is not too difficult to recognize.)

When you feel fully energized, bring your arms and legs together, pass back down the sunbeam, and return to your lying position on the bed.

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Copyright: Adapted from Creative Visualization, by Ronald Shone (Inner Traditions, 1998). Copyright (c) 1998 by Ronald Shone. Reprinted by permission of Inner Traditions.

Monday, September 05, 2005

My desire... at this moment.

When I was in Malaysia, I came across the most beautiful man made creation I've ever known. The sounds are realistic enough to leave you in awe. I was seriously having a ball with this baby. It's so simple and fun to use. I've been craving to get this synthesizer for the longest time and my dream might actually come true at the end of this month. I'm sure then I can go back on creating music but this time it'll be a lot more professional. Maybe then I'd be able to sell some records. Hehehe...
Not only do the new MOTIF ES Music Production Synthesizers feature the largest wave ROM of any workstation keyboard available (175 MB in 16-bit linear format), but that Extensive Sonic library is at the heart of the most expressive, most musical synthesis system on the planet, bar none. The Enhanced Sound set of the ES 1,859 waveforms – the majority of them newly sampled specifically for the MOTIF ES series – provide the foundation for 1,024 outstanding normal voices plus 65 drum kits. There are even Mix Voices so you can edit and create your own Voices will listening to your songs and store them right along with the song data. The MOTIF ES delivers an extraordinary sonic depth and musical response. The range of sounds it produces is stunning — from the Emulative Sounds of acoustic piano and orchestra to the Extreme Synthesis of cutting-edge hiphop and electronica. You only have to hear the ES once to know this is the best sounding, most Evolved Synthesizer Yamaha has ever made.

The newly designed tone generator chip offers true 128-note polyphony that gives you the freedom to create intricate compositions using the full gamut of the MOTIF ES Exceptional Sonic power. These instruments are designed for serious music production. The newly developed synth engine offers new synthesizer parameters and faster, more precise envelope control.

If you want to check out the sounds of this beauty just click here. Then click on media files and just enjoy listening.

What next?!?!

Well, it's been almost a year since I've graduated college in Malaysia and believe it or not, I still don't have my diploma. The campus in Malaysia finally got it from Australia 4 months after I graduated in Oct. 2004. Since in the Arab world they love to make it a living hell for it's people, I needed to certify my diploma along with my transcripts at the Ministry of Education and the Ministry of foreign Affairs in Malaysia before sending them over to be certified again by the Ministry of Education in the UAE. The procedure at the ministry in the UAE alone takes about 3 months.

My college in Malaysia are taking care of getting my papers certified. The first email I got from them was April 13th 2005 telling me that they're taking care of it all. The guy in charge kept sending me emails later to keep me posted. I thought all was going fine until what I feared the most and was certainly expecting from Malaysian officials actually did happen. I got this beautiful reassuring email from my college today:

"Dear Sara,I am sorry to say that I have some bad news. The ministry of education here has informed me that they have lost/misplaced your documents that I sent for certification. I made some noise at their office and was able to meet their head who reaffirmed me that your case will be looked into immediately. The officer in charge has apologized and has said that she will try to expidite the matter ASAP. I will be meeting her later this week and once I have more information, I will let you know.



That's is one of the reasons why I hated living in Malaysia... Nothing gets done unless you scream and get some people in trouble. I had to put up with it at school, with cab drivers and even doctor's offices etc... The crappy thing is that I can't get a proper job in the UAE until I get all my papers certified. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!

So what do you think? Is it better here in Syria or there in Malaysia. I see it that it's all the same. It's been 11 months and it's not even close for me to get my certified proof of education. I can't believe that stupid piece of paper can be that essential in getting job. I'm beyond pissed off and I just feel like going down to Malaysia and kick some ass.